I have neglected writing on here as of late. It's true I have been vaguely busy what with working full time, recording my album (which can be listened to over @ www.myspace.com/tomrdd) seeing friends and generally not really doing... well anything. So I feel it's time to write something deep and meaningful. So what to write about...
On a rather random drive around mid-Sussex with a friend I re-discovered an awesome song from back in the "good ol' days of the 90's". The song is called Affirmation by Savage Garden (I know not my normal cup of tea but I was young once!). What I really love about the song is the lyrics especially the line
"I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned"
Now, I hear you saying to yourself "oh god, a blog about love and breaking up, wahh!" well I could dive into the past to bring up something I've managed to some what get over or I could go on about how positive the future could possibly be. Believe it or not I used to be an optimist, it's true! I used to be labeled a "Happy-Go-Lucky-Ska-Kid" (whatever that is) and see the good in life but somewhere between the ages of 16 and 21 I lost that. But at my weakest I've had the opportunity to be my strongest and I think I've managed that.
I think it's only natural to hang on to the past but we can't keep carrying all our baggage with us if we want to survive. People will come into your life and unfortunately some of them are going to hurt you and some are going to break your heart. We can either sit there in self pity or we can drag ourselves out of that and get back on track with our lives. It's hard, God is it hard to put that kind of pain behind you, I mean after 4 years of being in a relationship it's been indescribably hard to suddenly be thrown back into the world of being single and not having someone there for you when you most need them. But I truly believe everything happens for a reason. In all of this I have had great friends who have let me cry on their shoulder, who have watched me unleash anger and frustration on walls and other inanimate objects and now it's time for me to repay them for all they've done for me by being happy and living my life the way it should be.
-- Tom RDD